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I need to step away for a while.

Posted by EugeneDoesArt - April 30th, 2022


tl;dr : Health problems have put me on hiatus


This is gonna be pretty long winded and depressing. I've never opened up about stuff this deep, so forgive me if I go on for too long. I've just had a lot on my mind, and only now have I realized how dire things have truly become for me. So after this, I'll be stepping away from NG and my work on Sue n' Clark for a while.


Alright here we go...




For the past two weeks, I have been suffering with inflammation and uveitis in my left eye. Its a horrible condition that has left me partially blind (and at times with a ton of pain). Right now the pain is gone, but the redness is ever present. The eye doctor has told me that the cause is "unknown", but that it may be related to some form of auto-immune disease. We've run through blood work and a chest xray, but have yet to find a root cause. My eye doctor has put me on steroid droplets to try and increase my eye's ability to fix itself. At first, we saw a lot of good progress. My eye began to straiten itself out. My blood work showed that I was generally healthy (username be damned). As far as we can tell I have no chronic health problems. But one night I felt a pain in my eye so horrid, not even Tylenol or Ibuprofen could ease it. The doctor has now told me that I may need to see someone else to give me an injection under my eye. I feel like all my work and progress to get better has been for nothing.


No matter where I go, or who I go to, its like a never ending spiral of problems. First time I got this condition, I was in high spirits that it would be over. I had high hopes that I could weather this health crisis, and all would go back to normal (as it should). But given two weeks of this torture has left me uncertain. For two weeks I have been given "cures" to issues that turned out to be greater than we first expected. With each "cure" being a disappointment or a potential liability, my faith in the medical system, and my ability to get better, has shrunken to new lows. Even with my parents helping me through these hard times, they can only do so much.


And yet, the pain and blindness isn't the worst part. The worst part is seeing all the time go by, as life continues to move without me. Time waits for no man, no matter the situation. I've done all I can to work on Sue n' Clark while under these conditions. My single eye has yet to fail me. But as I've hit week two of this illness, my spirit has begun to fracture. The pain of it all has left me with mental scars I never thought possible. And no matter how hard I try to live a normal life again, its as if this sickness wants to drag me straight to hell.


And so, I have decided to step away from my work on Sue n' Clark, and any NG projects until something happens where I can live my life in relative normality. I can't go on trying to live my life as an artist and fight this horrid illness. I suppose the silver lining to all this, is that I am not financially beholden to anyone here on NG or the wider internet. My work can remain dormant for as long as I need, and I can come back to it (hopefully) stronger than ever.


Until then, I bid all my pals here farewell.


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I have no idea how much pain you're going through right now. But remember your characters and stories are always with you. Keep them in your thoughts and don't give up on them no matter how hard it gets. They are there to help you in this horrible time.